Cinderella Story

2010-07-06T01:51:00.000+08:00

"สวัสดี"

2010-04-30T09:47:00.003+08:00

Watching SNSD bungee jump in Korea makes me really wanna try it too~ It's just too bad Singapore doesn't have it. Oh well, at least we have the GMAX thing!

Seeing Junsu yesterday was so..... amazing. He looks JUST LIKE on TV! The nonchalant way he sat on the buggy car........ killing me with his radiating charisma......

I didn't sleep last night. I thought I would be burned out from all the Junsu drama but no. I watched Drag Me To Hell and stopped halfway cos I felt sick. Then I tried to sleep, but I couldn't cos of those fucking weird dreams where you don't even know if you're sleeping or awake. By the time my brother got up for school, I was still tossing in bed so I just got up and said good morning to Singapore. Went to the store to grab some milk and cereal for breakfast, and now I think I'm gonna go sleep and wake in maybe 4 hours time.

2010-04-29T01:04:00.002+08:00

I rented Paranormal Activity to watch.

I'm going to have to bathe first before watching, or there's no damn way I can step into that shower after watching the film. Same goes for Ghost Whisperer! I actually think it's pretty scary, no? Haunting stories and disturbing graphics.

Junsu, Zuno and Jaejoong will be arriving tomorrow, I can't wait! I've decided to wait outside with the other fans cos it would be more exciting :D I'll wait in the transit area on Sunday, and ask for a photo!! Omg, can't wait.

Work recently's pretty good. There has been a lack of passengers I've noticed.. Especially in First Class. Wonder why, hmm.

2010-04-21T22:21:00.002+08:00

I'm home from Phuket!

I don't know why but I feel that Phuket has a very sleepy effect on me. Whenever I wasn't standing or walking in Phuket, I was sleeping. I was sleeping in the plane, on the 5 hours bus ride from Phuket to Surat, and in all sorts of transportation. Taxi, cars. Omg I need to talk about the 5 hour bus ride. Absolutely horrible. Our plane landed in Phuket, and we had to travel to the town of Surat which was 5 hours away. And my mother was so kiasu, she was rushing the entire time cos she was afraid of missing this and missing that. We had to rush from the airport to the bus stop, and we waited there for 1 hour in the hot morning sun. And in the bus, it was hot too despite the air con. So I slept. Nothing else to do anyway.. And we only ate our first meal at 4PM! Mad hungry by that time.

But I totally enjoyed myself cos there was SO MANY big ass billboards of Nickhun endoring Jelato bikes there! Omg I totally spazzed when I saw one. Hot hot hotstuff :D Over in Phuket, we stayed in 2 Novotel hotels. Impeccable service and gorgeous views :D Pictures will be on FB soon. And the room we stayed in had this gigantic Samsung LCD screen which had all sorts of channels, including KBS World and Channel NewsAsia! Great way to keep myself updated on Singapore :D And the buffet breakfast there was really good too.. There were 3 pools in the hotel and of course, the famous Patong Beach. No I didn't swim, I forgot my swim stuff. The second Novotel we stayed in was absolutely different from the first one. It was located in a secluded area high up the mountain and it was everything exclusive, private, and luxurious. There were no shopping areas whatsoever, only the beach which was just outside our room. Perfect for the traveller who just wants to relax. It was so damn quiet and to get to town, you had to take their transportation. We took their car to Jungceylon, and the route down the mountain was really nice. You could see the sea, the tall, dark trees, and all sorts of animals. It totally reminded me of Japan! But the route up was different and scary, cos the route up resembled an F1 race track with all its nonstop twists and turns and the speed our driver was driving didn't make the ride easier too.

The next way, transportation to the airport was a 630AM in the morning, and again I slept. Got on the plane half conscious, and slept again. While waiting for the plane to move, I intended to rest for just awhile as I wanted to catch the plane on take off. So I close my eyes and waited.. waited till I started wondering what the hell was taking it so long only to open my eyes and see the clouds and Malaysia below us.

Got fetched by Dad at the airport and despite wanting to just go home and sleep, we had to take a detour to Loyang to eat and grab some cat sand. Apparently the rain soaked the cats' toilet and they're refusing to use it, instead pooping around on the floor. Ugh. So we finally reached home around 2, and I went to bathe, went on to FB, and slept till now. SHIOKKKK.

2010-01-19T12:15:00.001+08:00

It's been so long since I blogged.

I love my job, but working everyday kinda makes me feel deprived. I need to go shopping on every off day and buy something. I'm rich now, HAHAHA!!

There's a few good movies coming up soon, I'm going to watch them all :D

2010-01-12T01:46:00.002+08:00

I'm proud of my History.

2010-01-11T02:10:00.001+08:00

I think I've messed up. Pretty badly this time.

Oh, what have I done?! Shouldn't have.. at all.

No..

2010-01-09T02:46:00.003+08:00

I'm so tired.

I've been working with Jackie quite alot recently. I really like her so much more than Emily. I need to remember to do the cinammon decorations tomorrow since Jackie's off.

I don't like Emily. She scolds me for everything. And it's not fair because I don't see her scolding anyone else who does the same thing as me. I've never stopped trying to improve, to make Emily stop scolding me, but no matter how much I've improved and how much effort I've put into this, Emily doesn't recognise it and continue her crap. It's not only extremely demoralising, it's also very hurting. I'm certain she picks on me. I've seen her SEE other people do even worse stuff and she keeps quiet about it. But she's able to spot every single unsatisfactory detail from me. From my appearance to my words.

I don't like her, I really don't.

I want to buy..... something for myself. Not sure what but... I'll see.

2010-01-06T01:13:00.002+08:00

Jackie hijacked me to be her personal assistant for 4 straight fucking hours today.

Running from the pantry to The Private Room to Business Class to First Class and back to the Bar again.

Thursday, I'm gonna buy a new lipstick. And maybe those SEXY CALVIN KLEIN HEELS. The black velvet one with the gold rear.

Meeting Goo earlier tomorrow, I want Ajisen!!!

OHHHHHHH, OHHHHHHH, OHHHHHHHH, YEAH EE YEAHHHHHHHHHH

2010-01-05T03:21:00.002+08:00

Fucking swollen gums in my mouth.

I want to eat Ajisen tomorrow! Pay day again on Thursday :D I'm going to pay for my dance classes and...... buy something for myself. Again.

Now everybody say.. La la iroke CHAAAA, cha cha ro AHHHHH, shinan da go YAHHHHH, LACHA LACHA TA TA~~~

2009-12-29T00:42:00.002+08:00

I finally got Goo her present! Glad that she loves it. OF COURSE SHE LIKE IT LAH, SHE SPENT 10 MINS TALKING ABOUT HOW NICE IT IS! Hahahah :DDDDDD

I'm off tomorrow, same as my mum! I'm going to go Clarke Quay with her to eat lunch, then go the City Square to shop. CAN'T WAITTTT

P.S I'm doing my airport pass tomorrow. Phototaking!!

2009-12-26T01:41:00.000+08:00

Only one word can describe today.

FUSTRATING.

2009-12-25T00:41:00.002+08:00

Work was so boring today cos there were so little passangers.

I'm supposed to be off tomorrow but I'm thinking if I should work. If I do, I'll have more pay. And I wouldn't mind spending Christmas there!! There's Eden and Lewis and Desmond and Jing Neng and Jordan and Ivy :D

2009-12-24T00:34:00.002+08:00

Today wasn't really heartbreaking, but it was definately heartwrenching.

I know I'll get through this. Just try not to think too much and it'll be bearable. I need distractions at work :( Goo's off tomorrow!

I've got my first pay check today. I got $650 for 13 days of work. I'm so going to buy that Calvin Klein heels. So freaking high! I wanna wear it to the kitchen and show Jackie. MUAHAHHA.

2009-12-22T01:35:00.002+08:00

I sliced my finger today before I even started work.

'WALAO YOU VERY TOK KONG LEH'

Imma off tomorrow. To see someone special :D

P.S PAY DAY'S TOMORROW <3

2009-12-20T01:24:00.002+08:00

Wahhh, tired.

Zac is pretty damn childish. It's getting on my nerves :/

Now it seems like I've been allocated to the wine bar. At least that's what I've been doing for the past few days.. It's not that bad. I actually prefer doing wine and champagne. It's easier, but my hands are full of cuts.

I'm very sleepy, imma go bathe and sleep early today.

P.S Navin! Are we still gonna go see Shiobhan tomorrow?!

2009-12-19T03:21:00.003+08:00

Walao today was so fucking busy!

I was doing the champagne and wine bar again. I swear, I was running back and forth opening bottles of champagne every FOUR minutes. It was crazy! The glasses ran out as well. So fucking crazy. Jackie made everyone OT till 1am, and the company paid for our taxis afterwards.

SO. TIREDZZZZZZ

2009-12-17T15:27:00.003+08:00

It was an accident, not a present :/ Good thing I asked!

Anyway, playing HTG at work worked like a charm.

Am gonna go meet Chris later to go Parkway for don't know what fuck. Need to go out on my rare off day. I'll be starting afternoon shift tomorrow! It's so much more fun working in the afternoon shift. Morning sucks :(

I've finally stopped coughing! Like finally. I've passed my sickness to Yvonne, Desmond, and even the china cleaners there! :(

2009-12-14T21:41:00.003+08:00

Today was so fucked up.

I knew it. I knew I was going to break down soon.

If Jenny's gonna be this fucking irritating again tomorrow I'm so gonna give her my deadliest look. It's just too bad I can't scold her cos she's my senior in terms of age. She's like what, 50?

I want to change to afternoon shift. Imma start planning my attact. Tomorrow, R's gonna get it first.

P.S R does not stand for Reverandoms uh!!!!

2009-12-10T20:02:00.002+08:00

I'm now at terminal 2 in the transit arrival area. The boys will be arriving in about 1hr and 42 mins' time from gate E5 so I'll be catching them there.

I. Want. A. Picture.

2009-12-05T12:04:00.002+08:00

As you can see, I've edited most of my posts.

Goo and Navin really gave me a wake up call last night. I really really glad they called, or I would have went to his house today. Not only do I feel disgusted now, I feel fucking stupid. They're right, he's a man and although he can give me what I want, he'll ask for more than I can give.

The talk last night had such an impact that I had a weird dream about it. I dreamt that I had a boyfriend who was two timing me with Carel, and one day when we were out, he openly went out with Carel, in front of me! And so I ran away, crying. And everyone tried to contact me, and by the end of the day, I had 81 missed calls. And even by then, my dreamt up boyfriend still DARED TO ASK ME TO GO WATCH A MOVIE. And I was like, FUCK YOUUUUUU. You think you can do this with Carel and still want to go out with me? FUCK YOU!!

Haha, I don't know why Carel was in the dream :/

Anyway, this dream must have been my subconcious self warning me about Zac when my real self is still struggling see through his murky antics. So this shows that deep deep down, I've always known that Zac wasn't good for me. I just got blinded by the attraction.

THANK YOU GOO & NAVIN! I'm so sorry I disappointed you earlier. And thank you for calling despite the let down. I LOVE YOU GUYS <33333

2009-12-03T23:18:00.003+08:00

Anyway, today was really really....... okay at work. I broke 2 glasses. Good thing is that JIA MIN's actually working at my place! I can't express how absolutely happy I am to have her there. It was getting really lonely :(

Looking forward to work tomorrow... I guess. I can't believe it's Friday tomorrow.

P.S Dance's at 1 to 3 this Saturday. So I guess I'll go over to Sentosa first, followed by dance, and then maybe meet up with the rest again? :D

2009-12-02T20:21:00.004+08:00

Men.

Any man is an emotional and sexual threat to a teengirl.

The amount of porn a man watches (no matter how innocent he looks) is mindboggling.

Guys I don't like texting too are bombarding me with smses while the one person I wanna talk to is distant.

As the days pass, I wonder if it's fated, or pre planned.

When I asked for the date of my off day today, Emily that skinny, old virgin with a really flat chest told me that there's no off day cos we're short of manpower.

Fuck you. I don't care if we're short of manpower, that's the agency's problem, not mine. It's not my fault that the agency people have such bad organisation skills after taking over NAFA and lack of discipline when it comes to BEING ON TIME (the people there are always late and not sure about their own fucking jobs or what they're saying). I'm legally entitled to a day off, and I'm going to have it.

2009-12-01T22:15:00.003+08:00

Thank you all for all the sweet messages today.

I'm feeling fatigued. So tired. It was a really rough day today during work. I slammed the fridge door onto my thumb, mixed up a passenger's order and just had a tough, tough day in the First Class lounge. That passenger was so freakin picky luh. She wanted like what, 6 bowls of noodles, 1 with soup and 5 dry, 5 want chili and 2 want a little chili. And no, that's not 7 bowls. She meant out of the 5 chili, 2 lesser chili. I didn't have a pen or paper or anything and I really couldn't remember. Despite repeating the order to her thrice, I got it all wrong. And she gave me that look. Really felt like crying then.

We were supposed to knock off at 3pm, but we were delayed cos the people from the next shift were late. So Zac and I were just slacking in The Private Room. It gave me a chance to serve his HK passenger too cos he couldn't speak chinese well =.= He also bought me really really orgasmic, milk chocolate peanutbutter cups. So damnnnnnn niceeee.

Had Kfood just now. Full like fuck :( I've been getting alot of attention from the boys in my kitchen and they've been texting me alot, but sometimes I rather it was someone else who text me that much..

2009-11-30T17:29:00.002+08:00

Hungry.

November 29 2009 marks the first day I've ever worked in my entire life. It also marks the day my first kiss was taken.

I can' describe it. I'm totally confused. The lyrics below depicts how I felt EXACTLY.

SNSD's Gee

You're so so handsome
My eyes my eyes are blinded
I can't breathe because I'm trembling

Oh I feel so embarrassed
I can't look at you
I feel shy because I've fallen in love

What should I do?
About my trembling heart
My heart kept thumping
So I couldn't fall asleep at night

I can't even say anything
I'm too embarrassed

Do I not have any courage?
What would be the right thing to do?
Thump thump my heart is anxious as I'm looking at you

Work was pretty damn good today. Without him there, I had the chance to think through what happened without being distracted every 3 mins. The people there are reallyyyy nice too :D

2009-11-28T20:55:00.004+08:00

My dad paid me to bring Oliver out shopping today.

It was pretty good! I bought a bag Goo would approve on, a Sakun cap for dance and some trinkets. I can't stay online long cos I've got training tomorrow morning. I've got to be at the airport by 6.30AM, fuck. Well, at least I'm being paid for it. And I would also see him tomorrow..

And what the fuck does Shawn How mean by he's engaged?! To his cousin?! WHAT IN THE WORLD... And he even said 'Unlike Allison who's heartless and unfeeling..' Great, now it's on FB for the world to see. Perfect.

I caught New Moon yesterday night with Razi and Navin :D IT WAS SO GOOD!! Omg Jacob. Hottest boy everrrrr. And Navin was snickering every 5 mins in the theatre =.= At least he agrees Jake is hot! :D

I'm sorry I missed dance today, I forgot to set my alarm :(

Today, at ION, I saw Mr. Charisma ROYCE yummy man. I saw him twice, once on the elevator and another time at Opera. He was with a chinese girl :( He looks so damn fineeee. I just got soooo sad after seeing him at Opera..

P.S Ya know, my mum has never had the sex talk with me. Sometimes I wonder when she'll do it..

2009-11-27T16:59:00.002+08:00

I spend the entire afternoon learning BoA's Energetic dance. It might have been short, but I'm proud of myself! I should have worn socks tho. My feet's blisters~~ I was so tired after that plus the mere 5 hours of sleep that I just sat on my chair and stoned for 10 mins.

I tried but I can't help falling in love with Khun. NOOO!! MUST NOTTTT.

2009-11-27T12:39:00.002+08:00

I'm still having mixed feelings. AISHHHH. Nevertheless, I can't believe I shall be watching New Moon in less than 10 hours time. I've waited a year for this! EDWARD!

I slept at 4.30am last night and I'm feeling so legarthic. I learnt BoA's Energetic dance last night too. It was.... not that difficult. Yet. I shall be learning the second part later.

Or maybe.. I should sleep. TIRED!

2009-11-26T22:49:00.002+08:00

Today, I met someone really special. I've never felt so flustered, embarassed and shy before. My face has never gotten redder than today. I've never felt so... attracted.

Had an emergency girl talk with Teriza afterwards. I think I screwed things up, but I'm going to fix it on Monday. Even though he's in his 20s, I can feel a mutual attraction.

I'm so confused. And excited.

2009-11-25T21:59:00.002+08:00

I guess there's alot to rant on.

Dad brought me and pig to the Market Place just now and had buffet dinner. I ate but cleared everything out of my system after leaving the place. I feel so sleepy now.. But I still need my dose of 2PM first!

Sometimes, I really don't understand why is it that despite recieving smses or missed calls, they don't bother to call or sms back. Why is this so? I think it's kinda rude and I would never do this. These kinda things just makes me wanna delete that goddamn number off. Seriously, why don't people get back to the person they missed? I mean, don't they get that there must have been a fucking reason why that person even bothered to contact you in the first place? I really don't understand this *shakes head*

Recently, pig has been bombarding my room and privacy with visits every 10 mins. He's always shirtless, and I keep Jaebum away from him so his smelly boy BO doesn't get to him. I'd allow pig to touch Jaebum if he wears a shirt.

I'm going to start working full time soon and honestly, I'm kinda worried. It's my first job and I'll be working alone. For 6 days a week. Worrieddddd.

Dad said we could go back to BKK for a short getaway during CNY. But I wanna go Chachoengsao instead. I miss life there. Better than nothing, I guess.

2009-11-25T12:57:00.003+08:00

I miss Thailand.

And I'm not even sure if we're going back this year. I miss Chachoengsao, I miss Bam and Uncle Somchat and Ba Mu, and I wanna be with them through this hard time. I miss everything there; the people, the food, the heat.

:(

2009-11-24T20:24:00.004+08:00

OH MY GOD. What's up with the 2PM boys nowadays?! First, Wooyoung's erection on Star King, followed by Taec's boner on stage, and now THIS?!

Yes, Nickhun had a moment on his stage with Ivy during the MAMA. And sweet lord, I'm happy to finally be reassured that his is uhm, let's just say larger than the average. Compared to Wooyoung's one or even Taec's one..... WOW.

At least I didn't say he lept a freaking Loch Ness in his pants :D

GAHHHH I WANNA MARRY HIM.

And it's not his fault! I completely forgive him for this incident. I mean, look at Ivy's dress and boobs :D

Okay, in other news..... Tong has been sleeping on my bed since 3PM. She woke up to eat at 8PM, and went back to sleep again. Even as I'm typing, she's like.. a dead ball of fur on my bed. She's gonna grow fat...

2009-11-24T00:26:00.003+08:00

From tonight onwards, I will be sleeping together with Jaebum, on my bed.

MEET JAEBUM :

I finally purchased him from Taka! And please, do not call him Pluto cos his name is Jaebum. Doesn't he look like a Jaebum?! Anyway, yes, his name is Jaebum now, and he shall be sleeping with me every night!

I LOVE MY YELLOW JAEBUM <3

Caught Paranormal Activity just now, it honestly sucked. The whole camera thing was making me giddy and it was mostly boring until the night part. And yes, I embarrassed myself once more when I screamed at a non scary part. Sigh. Right now, I'm totally sad cos time2sub2's acc was suspended on YT. Where am I gonna get my hourly dose of subbed 2PM goods now?!

The girls are coming back tomorrow night :D

P.S I found this forum called 2ONEDAY, purely for 2AM and 2PM fans. Ahhh, HEAVEN.

2009-11-22T14:27:00.003+08:00

I watched 2012, IT WAS SO AWESOME.

The movie was really really good. Everything seemed so real! Halfway through the movie, I started fantasizing about Jaebum (don't ask why). I think I've found my favourite member in 2PM.

Friday night marks the first dream I've ever had of 2PM. Same with all my other first evers, this one is really memorable. It was just Nickhun and me. He was um, topless while I was wrapped in a.... towel. Okay. So... he suddenly asked me to dance. So we just stood there and danced. And then I told him I was cold, cos I was freaking wrapped in only a towel. And he hugged me from the back, covering my bare back. And the fucking alarm rang!!!

The alarm always ring when it reaches the most exciting part, seriously. Like with my first akward dream of dongbang, we were reaching the climax when I woke up. AND LAST NIGHT I DREAMT OF 2PM AGAIN!! This one was clearer than Friday's night's. It was 2PM Junsu and I. We were in the MRT. Junsu was standing, I was sitting beside him. I remember not giving a crap about him cos I didn't really like him that much and he liked someone else. He sat beside me, and I started putting on some powder (Yes, in the MRT). I saw him looking at me and I turned my head away, hoping to break the akwardness. And then....... HE LEANED IN AND WHISPERED HIS HOTEL ROOM NUMBER.

What. The. Fuck.

I'm going to be very honest. I remember being happy and thinking to myself that I can't wait to uh, go to his room. And then time flashed forward and I was.. standing outside his 'room', which was.. a dental clinic. I didn't want to go in cos I was pretty damn sure it was going to be painful, no matter what we did. So I refused to go in, and Junsu started reciting some love poems, oh god. And then... I woke up.

:D

I'm gonna go get my plushy pluto from Taka later <3

2009-11-19T20:49:00.004+08:00

'Welcome aboard'

I GOT THE JOB! I'm so so so so happy :D Initially, I applied for waitressing, but I got a position even higher than that! I'm not sure what its called but from what I know, I'll have to be even more independant than a waitress and there'll be interaction with the customers. I'll be meeting the manager tomorrow to get my uniform and pass done. SO EXCITED! The pay's $1000 a month, and they're offering me places during the weekends even after my poly starts too. And after 3 months, if I continue working, the pay will go higher. Okay I'm already fantasizing about Jaebum or Nickhun visiting SG and ending up at the SilverKris Lounge already.

I really loved it when Mr. Edmund told me 'Welcome aboard'. Feels nice <3

2009-11-19T01:16:00.003+08:00

I read some rumor/true article online saying that Jay's not gonna return.

This feels like a nightmare. Jay HAS to return. 1.59PM isn't complete without Leadja! Even their album name is 1.59PM! NO NO NO NO NO NO. I don't believe that Jay wouldn't return. It's completely heartbreaking if this just ends like that. Please tell me that article isn't true.

2009-11-18T15:23:00.000+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK, FINE!

Just fuck my life.

2009-11-18T12:53:00.003+08:00

Gosh.. I'm speechless. Taekyeon ah, WHY SO BIG?!!!

2009-11-17T19:22:00.003+08:00

'What time is it? It's 2PM!'

That's gonna be my favourite line from now onwards. Nadia was laughing everytime I said this. My brother even funnier..

At 7.15pm at night...

Me: 'Lee! What time is it?'
*Oliver goes to check*
Me: 'It's 2PM!!!!!!'
Oliver: 'What 2PM, I whack you ah!!'

I have absolutely fallen in love with 2PM. They're so MANLY, that's the thing that sets them apart from other boybands. They're men, not boys <3 And they're so open about their personalities, compared to others. I really loved watching Wild Bunnies, it's so nice to see how they are in real life! THEY'RE SO FREAKING FUNNY OMG. I would really love to punch Taeckyeon one day; he's so fucking funny and full of antics! And on stage, they're so full of charisma and oozes sex appeal.

I've really come to like them at this point. I became a fan of theirs after Jay left, but after all that I've seen of them, my heart now truly aches at Jay's departure. It's really saddening, I feel sorry for him, for him having to go through all these. No matter how good their new album without Jay is now, 2PM just isn't the same without Jay on that stage with the other members. He's more than just a member or a leader, he's an inspiration and pillar of strength to the other members. 2PM needs him, so does all his fans. I don't know why I'm feeling this way, it's just painful to know that 2PM's without Jay. This just isn't right, not at all.

PARK JAEBUM, PLEASE GO BACK SOON!!!

2009-11-17T18:00:00.001+08:00

Yup. Nadia's right, I'm majorly deprived of it.

FML

2009-11-16T15:08:00.002+08:00

Omg, today was such a badddd day!

I was supposed to go the the doctor's in the morning today. So I woke up late, rushed through shower, breakfast, and rushed to the freaking farrrr busstop, and guess what? I didn't bring my ezlink card. I didn't have coins. I couldn't take a taxi. And if I went back home again, I couldn't make it in time. So I had to postpone the appoinment and walk back home while ranting to my friend.

Ugh, just fuck my life.

2009-11-15T13:48:00.002+08:00

My whole body is aching, especially my back.

I think I'm falling in love with 2PM's Junsu, he looks so hot in Heartbeat! I love his hair and his body and his clothes and his smile and his sexy jawline. AHHHHHHH!!!!

2009-11-15T01:14:00.001+08:00

Grr, why must the internet connection be this fucking slow and laggy when I wanna watch Youtube videos? Ughhhhh.

2009-11-14T16:06:00.002+08:00

I've lost my beat and form.

Need to start working REALLY hard from now onwards. Life so far is stress-free, except the fact that I'm totally broke. Wallet and card wise. I'm so tired now, I think imma go bathe and catch some winks.

I'm such a fucked up person.

2009-11-13T20:29:00.003+08:00

I must now eat a maximum of 2 meals a day only.

Today's interview wasn't really an interview, it was only a collection of data and a short briefing. The real interview will be next Tuesday, 2.30pm at Terminal 3. If I get this job, I will be waitressing at The Private Room. From what that guy told me, it's more posh than a VIP Lounge and the passengers I will be serving are people above the First Class people.. Meaning people who travels on First Class alot annually. These will include ministers, really really filthy rich people and sometimes even celebs. I AM SO EXCITED! The uniform is really cute as well! Black shoes with black pants, a biege vest and a red tie with a long, white sleeved shirt. It sounds horrible but it should look okay. The timing's really good too! There are 2 shifts, each 4.5 hours. I also need to know some wine knowledge, so I'll be lookin that up in the net later.

I MUST ACE THAT INTERVIEW ON TUESDAY!

I am slightly nervous for tomorrow's dance class..... What am I going to wear?!!! Nervous.......

P.S Furqaan! Go join the magic competition!!!

2009-11-13T14:06:00.001+08:00

I hope everything goes well later, it's Friday the 13th!!!

P.S Goo, your mag's with me!!

2009-11-12T17:58:00.002+08:00

Goo and I quit on the first day, the job was really tough. Goo quitted straight away with me following 3 hours later.

Anyway, another interview tomorrow, this time for a waitress at the VIP Lounge at the Airport. I HOPE IT'S INSIDE IMMIGRATION! =DDDDDD

2009-11-11T21:34:00.003+08:00

Shagged.

Finally, end of O Levels. Don't feel anything much though. The interview went well today and there'll be a second round of interview plus training tomorrow for Goo and I. We have to report there at 9.30am! My god. It's still 6.30pm, and say HELLOOOO to 18 Chefs after that. The job's pretty fun too, cos we'll be working with youths our age! Omg I hope my trainer tomorrow is a hot guy. Yummmm.

And Aaron, unlike someone, I'm not gonna waste my money (and life) away on cancer sticks. SO I WILL EARN MORE THAN YOUUU!

2009-11-10T22:45:00.002+08:00

Everyone, I'm back to blogging!

I know I still have MCQ tomorrow. But whatever, OMG THESE FEW MONTHS HAVE BEEN HELL. I've never ever been through so much stress in my life man. Studying every night, fearing/spotting topics and finding myself breaking down in tears often. Tomorrow, all these shall be officially over. I shall overdose myself on 2PM and everything korean. I even made a list!!

2PM Wild Bunnies
2PM Hottest
2PM Idol Army Camp
Boys Over Flowers
Princess Hours

I've started looking for jobs too. Tomorrow, I'm going for an interview/start working as an Event Promoter. Not sure what that means though, but I'll find out tomorrow. Anyway, the pay is damn good! $500 per week for full timer, $90 per day for part timers. HAH, TAKE THAT AARON!!!! I'MMA EARN MORE THAN YOUUUUU.

Anyway, it's pretty late. Got to get some wink wink, my eyebags are.... just unbelievable.

P.S FINALE!! See you girls (and guy) this Saturday! NOMU BOGO SHIPEO <333

2009-11-10T18:06:00.003+08:00

COMING SOON

- Currently in the process of looking for a music player code stuff. Know what I searched for instead of myflashfetish.com? I typed myfleshfetish.com.

2009-09-17T22:21:00.002+08:00

I guess it's goodbye for now.

STOP GOING ONLINE

STOP WATCHING TV

STOP GOING OUT FOR MOVIES

NO PROCRASTINATION

NO DISTRACTIONS

AND SLEEP

I've printed out everything unnie has said and I'm gonna make post its of it later, and stick it up my wall. I shall not be coming online anymore. I'm left with god knows how many more days, and it's time to get down and dirty (with work).

Goo, try not to stress yourself too much kay? You sound really stressed up. Just keep thinking positive and the next time you on your laptop, activate microsoft words! This way, you'll type notes instead of going to facebook. And please sleep well too. You really sound very... stressed.

I miss my friends. I miss Carel, Navin, Goo, Razi, Lijie, Aaron, Furqaan. I know I see them daily but...........

I guess this shall be my last. Goodbye, for now.

M.I.A

2009-09-13T12:45:00.002+08:00

I just opened my Hotmail in what seemed like months and I watched the Finale test videos.

All I can say is...

OH. EM. GEE!!!! YOU GUYS IMPROVED SO MUCH! Like seriously, there's so much I missed out on and I don't know if I can catch up. Watching the videos makes me miss you guys like crazy and I really can't wait to get back to class. WAIT FOR ME, 2 MORE MONTHS!!!

FINALE, HWAITING!!! Love you guys <3

2009-09-12T22:35:00.000+08:00

ANNOUNCEMENT.

1. LEE MINHO IS COMING TO SINGAPORE ON OCT 11, SATURDAY.

2. HISTORY STUDENTS, STUDY POLICY OF APPEASEMENT, KOREAN WAR, CUBAN MISSLE CRISIS, STALIN AND HITLER, AND WAR IN ASIA PACIFIC.

2009-09-12T21:43:00.002+08:00

OH EM GEE!

It's my new favourite word. YESTERDAY WAS SO AWESOME!

Yesterday was seriously damn fun. Firstly, Lijie and I popped over to the Kikuzawa's for lunch. Okay, actually not really lunch and it was more of like let-just-devour-everything cos we had starving for that. And even though I ate sashimi twice, I seriously can't seem to 'taste the sea'. The raw, dead fish tasted like.. it just tasted wrong to me. And our chef kept serving us raw, I've-never-heard-or-seen-before sushi, so I kept shoving my sushi's meat into Lijie's mouth, and I ate all the cooked stuff. Which is kind of funny actually. Sho would freaking laugh or kill me or something if he was there, speaking of which, I realised I cannot marry a japanese man and live in Japan cos there's no way will I be able to adapt to the food there. But the unagi was pure heaven man. It was cooked, torched, and it MELTS IN YOUR MOUTHHHHHHHH.

Conclusion? The best part of Sushi Kikuzawa, IMO, was the unagi and the jelly. Yum.

And then we went to ION Mall, WHICH IS LIKE SO FREAKING BIG. The toilets are so damn posh man!

WE WENT TO ETUDE HOUSE. The korean make up shop, endorsed by Lee Minho. The shop is pretty tiny, but it was so pretty! It was super crowded lah, I bought a lovely lipstick and Lijie bought eye bigger-ner. THE BEST PART? LEE MINHO'S POSTER AND FOLDERS!!!! I'm so gonna bring it to school on Monday. We were spazzing like crazy at the shop, HAHAHA!

Okay, LETS TALK ABOUT ROYCE. The sexy man at Royce. He is the most charming, charismatic man EVER. To us teenage girls, he totally exists in a whole other world. If I were Zoey Redbird, he would be Loren Blake. First glance, he looks very normal. He's not even good looking, with his bad skin. But he opens his mouth, I FREAKING MELTED. Melted into a pool of gooey honey. His 'Welcome again' made me feel so.. touched/warm/special. And the way he smiles and his sparking eyes, OHHHHHHHHH! Not to forget he is perfectly dressed in a gray tux. Damn, his first few words have gotten me smitten. He totally made us so shy, to the point that Lijie couldn't even look at him and I could only steal glances at him. His sexy, deep voice is so extremely appealing. Start a conversation with him, or look at his deep eyes and teasing smile, and the room becomes a blur.

I don't want a goodlooking boyfriend, I want a charismatic one! CHARISMA!! Just like Junsu, sighhhhh. Lijie, next time you're going to pick up some chocolates at Royce, call me along!!!

I can't wait get some shopping done at Bugis and Lijie, the pictures!!! =DDDDDDDD

2009-09-09T22:18:00.002+08:00

Today, I watched my first M18 movie.

Sanjoe and I went to watch Final Destination 4, and god it was so funny. We tried first at Century Square, but despite me being a korean exchange student with an american accent and Sanjoe being an american, we couldn't get through. So we went to GV Tampines mall instead, and omg it was so damn funny, we pretended to be these exchange students from america, and our accent was so strong that the guy couldn't understand what Sanjoe was saying. When asked for our student pass, I was like 'Nono, we're not Singaporeans so we don't have those uh.. pass?' and Sanjoe followed with 'Yeah, what's that?' HAHA. And then, we gave the guy our fake birthdates and he let us in, but told us that the usher would want to check our passports. So we said 'Yeah, well that's in the hotel in that place, uh what's it called, uh Bug-Is? HAHAHAH' And so we got our tickets.

At the entrance, Sanjoe was pretending to talk to his mum on the phone in French, and after I handed the usher our tickets, my phone conveniently ringed and I spoke to Junsu in Korean. HAHA OMG AND WE GOT IN JUST LIKE THAT.

The movie wasn't really gory at all, as compared to the 3rd one. This one kinda sucked actually. All the killings looked so fake. Not scary too.

Shall go study history.

2009-09-08T11:50:00.002+08:00

Start on Biology revision. (1pm)

Return DVDs at Whitesands. (4pm)

Maths tuition. (5 pm)

2009-09-07T21:44:00.001+08:00

Woke up to leg cramps this morning, so expected.

Seriously, I don't know how the hell I managed to run 7 rounds at Tampines stadium yesterday. The last time I ran was at Napfa. Like her mum, Goo really has the genes to run. SHE DIDN'T FREAKING STOP AT ALL. And hey, I bused home but at least I didn't eat KFC!

Studied for 4 hours with Sanjoe just now. We might be watching Final Destination 4 tomorrow. I simply can't wait for Friday, and ya know what Lijie, I'VE ALREADY STARTED STARVING FOR FRIDAY HAHAHA! And please, it's not meeting the inlaws lah omg.

Shall go bathe, surf, study, and sleep. Sleep is like, ahhhhh heavenly.

P.S I fell at Takashimaya on Saturday, while walking around in heels.

2009-09-06T11:34:00.000+08:00

I'm incredibly glad the school holiday has started. To celebrate it, I skipped tuition yesterday morning so that I could sleep in.

Life's been great so far. I guess I'm going to stop blogging already, or maybe limit it to once a week. On Friday, I went out with my dear Reverandoms to the night bazzar at Paya Lebar. A whole hellish lot of walking, great food, and great buys. I love the dress! And omg, the briyani was the damn shiok. Especially when we were all hungry like shit.

Yesterday was my mum's offday. I really don't like how both our parents are spending so little time with us. I wish she could quit her job. On a lighter note, the pig and I have been bonding pretty well. We debated if oranges grow on trees.

I'm sick of thinking what to type, so I'm going to go off now. BYE!

2009-09-01T12:20:00.000+08:00

It's so upsetting, we didn't get to watch Orphan yesterday!!!

And as much as I would wanna watch it today, Navin just told me yesterday that the English Prelim is tomorrow. I had no idea cos I accidently recycled the timetable. And SS is on Friday! SHIT SHIT SHIT. Today, I'm gonna study of course. But I was thinking that if I really CHIONGED today, then maybe I can reward myself with Orphan tonight.

Okay, off to Youtube for awhile, and I'll start studying at 1.

2009-08-30T11:32:00.000+08:00

Yes, I cried when I read unnie's blog.

I haven't been around that much recently but the thought of disbanding pains my heart. Having been through so much, we're more than a teacher and his students. I remember how we slowly changed from Michelle's class when you took over. I remember the first time I heard your voice via the intercom at Soho. 'Hello, Eugene ah?' 'Er no.. This is Rahim.' And then we were all surprised when it was announced that you'd take over the class. All the laughther erupted then, and I started to remember the names of the other girls in class. We all started chatting and of course, we gossiped like crazy. The first time I saw you and mummy at the rooftop, I ran back to class and told all the girls about it.

We stood together through all the fights, the drama, and the difficulties. I haven't been through with you guys the sadistic 100 crunches, but I've been doing it at home. I did all that you told me to, the bounces and everything. I remember you telling me to not stop dancing no matter what, and to approach you or mummy for help. I still remember the first dance advice you gave me, 'The moment you step on stage, all you think about is performing to your audience.' That was what I kept in my mind on the day of my first Danceworks.

You were the one who fueled our passion for dance, and you are so much more than we ever expected in a teacher. Please keep teaching us. We really are nothing without you.

2009-08-23T11:36:00.000+08:00

THIS POST IS SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO OUR SEXY NAVINHAN!

WELCOME TO THE BLOGGING WORLD!

2009-08-23T11:30:00.000+08:00

Sigh.

Okay, I shall start work today. 3 Lit essays to be done, and 1 English compre.

I had a super weird dream last night. I can't really remember all of it. There was something like Mamat and me being an item, and Goo announcing it to the entire canteen, and then Navin was teaching me to use a phone. And then at home, I was Zoey Redbird, and I was crying cos Nyx and taken everything away from me, such as my Mark, my tatoos and all. And I had wide hips, and I realised that Nickhun and I have been having sex for sometime already.

It. Was. So. Weird.

My father bought Oliver and I Sakura yesterday. I don't like the food at all. And then, the pig and I watched Where Got Ghost, which was pretty boring actually.

Sian ah. Shall go blog hopping.

2009-08-21T21:17:00.000+08:00

Omg, I just watched the 2nd New Moon trailer. Again.

Damn, Jacob is so so so so so hot. With short hair. God, if he jumped through my window half naked like in the trailer, I can just die. I can't effing wait till the movie's out.

So.. Night classes were pretty productive, but it's reallyyyy tiring. I skipped tuition today, shucks. I still have another session tomorrow morning, and probably 4 more next week.

And I am proud to announce, that my Art is finally, OVER!!!!! Yes!! WOOOHOOOOO!! I finished my Final artwork, PLUS my prepatory work. For real. YES YES YES!! BYE, FUCKING BOARDS! I WON'T EVER MISS YOU! I wanna thank my lovely Carel dear and Ms. Nugget Lijie for being with me during my brief period in Hell. Well okay when Ms. Chua was there, it wasn't really Hell lah, it was more of like Boot Camp, but whatever. I've oficially graduated to the high heavens, and I'm eagerly waiting for Lijie to finish too! Afterwards we'll drag Aaron to Sho's Sushi joint and stuff ourselves silly.

Aaron's down with high fever for 7 days, I hope he gets well soon!! School isn't the same without him there as the weird joker. GET WELL SOON, MALAYSIAN KAMPONG BOY!! =D

I have to get my butt moving. Big Os coming in 2 months, I gotta start hardcoring. This time, for real.

Goo: 'Moses, you're so sexual! You should go compete with Allison!'

HAHA Goo knows me well.

2009-08-16T22:46:00.000+08:00

Alright. I finished the whole book, and guess what, I totally didn't study. At all.

Okay, you can fail me now.

2009-08-16T14:42:00.000+08:00

Okay, I feel bad/guilty/shitty cos I'm fully aware that the big Os are coming up in 2 months time and I'm still not studying. I gotta stop being so unproductive. And to kick start my new resolution, I came up with a list:

Revise and understand the History notes on the Soviet Leaders
Do Maths revision (Cos I have a shitload to catch up on)
Do Biology paper
Revise Biology (Cos I've really been ignoring my Bio for months already)
Read up on Globalisation
Study the History content on the Soviet Union
Get Navin to teach me Cummulative Frequency/Probabilty
Study the Social Studies topic for Prelims
Do NOT buy the 5th and 6th book of the House Of Night series until Os end. Say byebye to Erik.
Okay maybe it's okay to just get the 5th book.

Okay.. that's a pretty not-long-not-short list. Well, not to mention Physics, which I have given up hope on.

And I'm happy to say that I've won the singing competition yesterday, which means, I'M $200 richer! And yes Goo, you're absolutely right, it's just in time for the cleaning out of my wardrobe.

OH WAIT! It reminds me, I now have money to eat at Sho's with Lijie and Aaron (whom I repeat, have No Choice But To Go). I can't wait to stuff my face with sushi (cooked, hopefully).

Gahh. I wanna read just a fewwww more chapters of Untamed, and then I'll study. Promise, CHOP CHOP! (ala Goo)

P.S For the first time in my life, I don't have to switch off Razi's blog music.
P.S.S The Pig is acting weirdly today. He actually came by my room to released Tong into my room for her safety?!
P.S.S.S UNNIE! I know you're going crazy over Taeckyeon and JiYoung's stages. Don't kill the woman!

2009-08-14T16:41:00.000+08:00

School was sluggish. I literally felt like a slug trapped in an oven during Maths. Which was SOOOO SUPPOSED TO BE CD LESSON. They switched on the one and only working aircon and sealed the class up. Imagine sitting at the back. Doing hateful maths. Ugh!

Okay.. So one thing I've learnt from the House Of Night series is to listen to my intuition and follow my gut feelings. So, I feel totally prepared for tomorrow's competition and I feel good cause I think I've chosen the right song. That's what my gut's telling me anyway. So yeah. But still, it doesn't unknot the knots in my stomach when I realised I'm the first contestant to go. So uhm. I'm feeling like my stomach's being ice-blended. Okay whatever. Nonsensical, random ramblings.

I've finished Chosen, and damn, I was feeling like how Zoey felt when the book ended. I can't wait to lay my hands on the next book.

Okay. Gotta go back to practicing.

2009-08-13T20:03:00.000+08:00

Woo, I've 300 posts on my blog already.

School has been exciting lately. I'm totally in love with the House of Night series, of which I've read up to the 3rd book already. Erik Night and Loren Blake is so hot. Doesn't Erik Night sounds like a totally hot and sexy guy? But unlike Erik, Loren is a MAN. A male vampyre, who is insanely handsome, mature, hot, sexy, charismatic, and manly. Sigh. Fictional characters.

Okay.. So I've got a competition this Saturday which I am SO not prepared for. Shit. And.. I've got 2 new crushes in school. One's not really appropriate, but whatever. The other's totally cute (to me) and has a niceeeeee character too. And before you ask, no, they're not from our class, so strike his name off.

Hell, O Levels in 2 freakin' months. The DPA results are out next Tuesday, and it would really take alot off my shoulder if I passed. But it doesn't equate to slacking for Os, of course.

Sigh. Gotta go. I'm reallllyyyyy looking forward to some sushi with Lijie and Aaron(I don't care you must go) soon.

2009-08-08T23:01:00.001+08:00

When I first read it, my initial reaction was shock and hurt. But I immediately realised that I wasn't purposely left out/uninvited; my dearie already knew I was unavailable! I know that she knows, and alot more, and I'm really appreciative of the extra efforts she took. I instantly feel relieved and apologetic for doubting them.

I just wanna apologise to Furqaan, Aaron, and my other friends for my recent behaviour. I know I've been acting weird recenly and pissed Furqaan off a little, and probably even Aaron. I just wanna explain that I've been pretty sensitive/down/fucked up/battered/crushed/emotional/worried/scarred recently, and it's going to continue on for awhile more. Alot has been going through my life in the past few weeks and I'm struggling to get over it. I really feel that I was going through one of the darkest period of my life, but it's getting slightly better now. I'm sorry Furqaan, if I really pissed you off yesterday or something. =( I just need some time to get over this.

I'm extremely grateful to Sinthu, who has ALWAYS been there for me. Reminding me, keeping an eye on me, consoling me etc. Same goes to my dearest Sanjoe and Vani, and our very dearly missed friends. I love you guys.

P.S Thanks Carel and Selena chagiya =)I'll get better soon.

2009-08-05T20:36:00.000+08:00

Hi Blogger.

Life has been.. bad? I don't really like my life now. I don't feel how I felt during the first week after the june holidays. I'm no longer looking forward to school, missing my friends on Fridays, or feeling great and perfect in class.

I really, really don't like my life now. Really. But too bad, life goes on. BUT I FUCKING HATE MY LIFE NOW PLEASE?!

Just too many problems and insecurities. The two biggest problems of my life merged together; I feel so exhausted. I am especially feeling insecure recently. Don't ask me in which aspect of life lah. I once felt perfectly at ease, and totally blissed out in that aspect. Now, merely a short time later, I'm having doubts and insecurities. I know why; I'm being more sensitive nowadays. But if you were in my shoes, going through what I'm going through now, you would feel the same way. I feel fucked up, sad, worried, and FUSTRATED. There's nothing I can do but wait. Until everything goes back to normal, my days will be as fucked up as yesterday's. Or the day before yesterday's. Or the day before that. Or days last week.

I'm really glad that at least, I have Sinthu. I don't regret telling her and Sanjoe everything, at least they've been helping me. And encouraging me. At least I don't feel worse if I think negatively when someone who knows about my problems aren't talking to me about it or helping me. At least I won't think that the reason for their avoidance isn't due to disgust, cos they HAVE been helping me.

Why is it that I feel let down? Did I expect too much? Or was it the stark difference between both parties?

Art has been fucked up. I'm really tired and sick of it all; whenever I thought that finally, I'm done, more works piles up. I tell you, I seriously don't care if I fail or pass Art already. I'm just really upset that all the things Ms. Chua is doing now, was supposed to be what Mdm Teo should have done months ago! All Mdm Teo does is to throw something entirely new like O Level Art at us and order us to start work without even helping us/encouraging us/explaining the work to us at all! And she constantly pressures us with her fucking attitude, AS IF WE AREN'T REALLY BOTHERED AND WORRIED AND STRESSED BY ART ALREADY? There we were, not knowing what the fuck was going on, and she comes in and scream at us for not doing something we were supposed to do COS WE DON'T FUCKING KNOW BECAUSE SHE DIDN'T FUCKING EXPLAIN. And if we do something wrongly, she scolds us for doing a fucked up job. SHE DOESN'T EVEN DO HER JOB AS A TEACHER. All she does is to show us/read to us official documents from the MOE and show us the guidelines and all; THAT'S A FREAKING TALKING PARROT, NOT A TEACHER! She did not TEACH or GUIDE or ENCOURAGE or INSPIRE, hence I find it unfit to call her a teacher.

I have a lot of rage and emotional feelings inside of me nowadays. Due to all the fucking problems in my life. I'm trying very hard not to snap, and all those snide remarks in school does NOT fucking help. It might be a joke, but I can't take jokes now. I'm officially a sensitive and insecure bitch.

I'm trying to think positive. To think that everything is going to be fine. But how can I look at the damage and think that way? I can't even get over the grief/regret/sorrow. I'm struggling. I need more support. Before I break, before things get worse. Cause I can't take any more than this now.

2009-08-02T21:51:00.000+08:00

MY FATHER WON 4D!

The new medication I'm on has been giving me side effects. Headaches. I really really really hate headaches.

2009-08-01T23:19:00.000+08:00

I'm sad.

I was supposed to go and make a suprise visit to my dearest, popping/bouncing/rollingonfloor/jumping lovelies in class today. BUT I WAS TOO LATE, DAMN!

I miss everyone, really. UNNIE, TERIZAAAA, SELENACHAGIYA, JEDI, YOUWEN, RAIHAN, JING EN, RAHIM&JAYLENE !!!

Next Saturday seems like a loooooong time.

Through thick and thin, I'll stick it through with Mummy, Papa, and that little annoying pig.

By the way, she and her pig L is really disgusting, ugh.

2009-08-01T00:24:00.002+08:00

WALAO!

Goo, you're the most disgusting/scary/pychopathic/traumatising/evil female I've ever met!

THANK GOD I DID NOT GO FOR TENNIS!

I knew that the sudden headache was a signal from God haha.

Next time, I'm gonna catch all the furry animals and place it outside your door.

=D

2009-07-30T18:43:00.000+08:00

I haven't been blogging since forever.

I'm sorry Goo, Carel, Razi and Nas for bailing out at the last minute. Felt really shagged today, what happened in school today was abit too much for me to handle I guess.

ART ART ART ART. I believe I can finish my Art preppie by Monday. Come on Lijie, let's CHIONG! Can't stay over at Georgia's this weekend anymore, bleh.

Why must Art have prep work? Can't I just paint something and end it? Sigh.

My good friend has got the piggy flu. I think I'm next.

It's really hard for me to think positive and feel confident/hopeful when I look into the mirror and see the damages I've done. 'Look at what you've done!' it seems to be screaming at me everytime. I'm submerged with guilt, shame, fear, and regret.

I don't want this. I don't deserve it. I don't.

2009-07-26T14:52:00.000+08:00

Stressed, violently sick.

I feel like I can't take it anymore. Fighting this painful, never ending battle alone for so long, when will it take a good turn? Nothing has been good lately. It's been getting, worse, worser, and worst. It's draining me mentally, it's slowly eating away at my personality, it's hurting me emotionally.

And it's killing me physically.

It's so tiring and painful, emotionally, physically and mentally. But how can I give up? What will I have become if I give up? The consequences are dreadful. The physical consequences, god.

I feel like I'm losing, day by day.

When will it ever get better?

2009-07-20T21:17:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST MAMAT!!

I love my pornstar to the maxxxxx <3 KEEP SMILING BABEEEYYYYYY!

2009-07-20T21:16:00.002+08:00

FUCK LAH!

I'm super sad. I knew it wasn't that simple.

Nevermind, just forget it.

2009-07-19T00:12:00.002+08:00

Today was great! Loved Mamat's cats, THEY'RE SO DAMN FURRY AND CUTE!

Thanks Carel darling for uploading the pictures! I just saw them, and DAYUUMMM, the black and white ones of us are so damn hot!! WE MUST TAKE MORE B & W SCARY PHOTOS!! There was one group black and white one somewhere near the end which had Goo hugging Carel in a.. She's-the-only-family-I've-left way. Loved the expression on your face!! DAMN NICE!!

CAN'T WAIT TO TAKE MORE OF SUCH PHOTOS!

2009-07-18T01:45:00.003+08:00

I'm almost done with my final artpiece.. Thank god! Thanks Ms. Chua, actually. She's freaking awesome, I swear.

Tomorrow's going to be a hectic day. I've taken my pills but they haven't kicked in yet. Hoping to feel the effects soon.

I'm going to say something in reference to him and his post. I didn't expect such extreme negativeness from the post she told me about, but even if I did read it first before doing anything, I still would have apologised. And now, I've read new updates. You talk about me and my attitude like you know me alot. You don't even know me that well and you insult me and my attitude so much like you even know a fuck about what's happening and what I'm doing? The last person to mention ANY flaws in MY character and attitude is YOU. You don't even fucking know me personally that well, so stop talking like you know everything. Ugh. And backing? Who are you referring to as backing? HUH? What, the family? WHAT BACKING? I don't have backings. I take full responsiblity for my own actions, right or wrong, which is why I would still apologise even if I knew you were being such a pussy about this. So big fuck to you. At this point, I don't really care what you think about me (never really cared actually) but no way am I going to go sleep without writing something about your posts. When I replied Sarah, I meant it in a joking way. What, you don't think I'm joking? Don't believe that I was sorry? Don't then! I apologised, I know what I meant in my reply to Sarah, and I know that I'm not going to try to convince you anything cos this is you. You, who is fucked up so I'm not going to continue apologising, or continue trying. *shrugs* I'm sorry that you're being such an ass about this and to blow this out of poportion. I don't think I would care anymore after this. If you think I'm a bitch to my friends, and that they've suffered alot being with me, continue thinking whatever you want. Whoever who is suffering by being with me is free to leave me. Do you see me tying a chain around their necks? No. So with the fact that my friends are not leaving me proves that it's either they're stupid, or you're just cock eyed. *shrugs* I no longer care if you accept my apology. As long as I know that I was sincere in my apology and that I meant no personal insults in my reply to Sarah, I won't care anymore if you think I'm a shallow bitch. If this is the way you choose to look at things, then up to you lor. Whatever works for you man.

And if I AM being an ass to my friends.. I trust that Goo or Carel would tell me about it. Yeah, so stop fucking around in my life trying to judge me and go get yours. I don't need your criticism, I don't even know you.

Shall go hunt down some videos of SNSD or something now. See you all tomorrow, darlings!

2009-07-16T22:19:00.002+08:00

My awesome masterpeice is finishing soon, I really can't believe it.

I have a truckload of thanks for Ms. Chua!! Without her, NON of these would have been possible, I swear.

Harry Potter was disappointing.. I left the theatre dazed and confused. I also got attacked by a migriane in the middle of it. It was disappointing in the sense that there was no little storyline and plot.. and it had no shocking/twisted ending.. There were little scenes of friendship/trust/loyatly displayed between the three of them.. The movie just made me feel like it had no direction. So yeah, Dumbledore died and Malfoy and Snape's in the bad league, but that's all the movie showed. Where's Voldermort? Where are the tense moments? Where are the hugeass monsters?

Okay anyway. More Art tomorrow.

I'm beginning to feel lost. And I sense that things are changing.

2009-07-15T21:44:00.005+08:00

Just read Mum's blog, and I am PISSED.

Mum had this sicko ass on MSN who tried to fuck around by showing her his dick.

WHAT! DICK ONLY, YOU THINK DAMN SCARY AH! Stupid fucker, I'll cut your dick and balls off since you like parading it around. I HATE HATE HATE HATE men who think that women will scream in horror or get traumatised at the sight of a TINY COCK.

I'll go add him on MSN and play his game with him. I'M BETTER AT THIS THEN HE KNOWS!!

jasontanlw@yahoo.com.sg

Stupid-women-underestimating-fucker!

ROAR!!! I'M SO PISSED!!

2009-07-12T13:14:00.003+08:00

Didn't take the pill last night, but I had a hard time waking up this morning.

I know I have a gazillion pictures to upload, but Blogger really sucks at this, so I'm gonna do what my darlings do... GET A PICASA ACCOUNT! I'll do it later. I promise! Haha =D

FOR MUMMY:

1.Where and how did we meet?
Erm.. At Soho's rooftop!
2. How long have you known me?
2 months =D
3. The last time we saw/talked/chatted/texted each other?
Yesterday night
4. Your first impression of me upon meeting/seeing me?
'OMG! Girls, look!!! CHER'S GIRLFRIEND!!!'
5. What kind of movies do I like?
Hmm. I think.. those gory ones where you would laugh at the bad acting?
6. What's my favorite music?
Anything Dad introduces =DDDD
7. Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else(what)?
Sporty, punk, and sexy.
8. Am I funny?
You're HILARIOUS!
9. If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be?
Hamster. Cause the nick just came to my mind when I thought about it HAHA
10. If you and I were stranded on an island alone, how?
CALL DAD HAHAHH!
11. Where do you think I will be in 20 years?
At home, cooking for Dad and your kids!
12. What reminds you of me?
JLene. It's very memorable.
13. What is my best attribute?
Sigh, your BODY.
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
Nope. Not yet hahahah
15. Will you re-post this so I can fill this out for you?
YES YES!

Okie, off to make my Picasa album.

2009-07-11T22:33:00.002+08:00

Sleeping pills knocked me out completely yesterday, so I didn't blog.

Those pills are damn effective man. Took one on Thurday night and it only took a few minutes on bed for it to kick in. I had a dreamless night, and it kept me sleeping in class for the first two hours too. I took it last night and I was super drowsy this morning.

Anyways! Haunting In the something was awesome. It was less on the suprise and shock element, but more on the storyline. Loved it, it was refreshing!

I super love my darlings. I'M PLANNING FOR AN OUTING! Does a Saturday afternoon at the beach sound good to you all?

I should go do my Art. Tomorrow..? SIGH, BLOODY PROCRASTINATOR!

By the way, I sat beside this cute angmoh guy after I parted ways with the rest on Friday. He was a teen, and he was soooo cute!! OMG HAHA, Goo's reaction was so... Gooish. Hahahah =DD

Have loads more to say, but tomorrow?

P.S Okay, you win. I shall start running tomorrow morning.

2009-07-08T19:29:00.003+08:00

Oral sucked today, but nevermind, at least it's over!

I like my new seating arrangement, but Sho, Lijie, Mamat and Aaron are so damn far from me! I'm contemplating if I should bring a pillow to school tomorrow. Thursdays and Fridays are the BEST days to sleep, I tell you.

Speaking of tomorrow, IT'S PHOTOTAKING DAY!! So gonna put on an extra layer of powder in school tomorrow. I can't wait, I'M SO EXCITED!

Art today was.. good? Mdm Teo sort of challenged me by demanding that I transfer my composition onto the wooden board using FREE HAND. And when I finally finished and did it pretty nicely as well, she came over, looked, and walked away curtly with a 'Fine.'

I FELT SO DAMN GOOD I TELL YOU!

I love Ms. Chua. SHE'S THE BEST! Gotta start doing my drawings and colour scheme already. I'm... confident I can finish on time? Well at least my painting's not the same as the others *shrugs*

OFF TO APPLY FOR DPA NOW!

P.S Happy Birthday Ms Melissa. You're one teacher I will always remember <3

2009-07-06T21:51:00.001+08:00

Omg, I haven't started dieting! EUNHYUKKIE WILL BE UPSET.

Ugh. Need to lose some fucking weight, I MEAN IT!

Hooray, dance exam on Saturday instead! BUT SHIT, TOMORROW STILL GOT CHINESE ORAL!

Going off to sweat up a storm~~

2009-07-06T14:41:00.002+08:00

WELCOME TO THE BLOGGING WORLD, MAMAT!

A special post dedicated to my lovely pornstar, Mamat <3

2009-07-06T14:36:00.002+08:00

I just got the shirt I ordered, I'M SO HAPPY! Turqoise definately suits me, I'm glad I took the risk to try something new. I look so refreshing!!

So now I'm all set for tomorrow's dance exam. New shoes, new shirt, and a new mindset. What's lacking? THE PREPARATIONS OF COURSE. I can't freaking remember the last part! And the freestyling. SHIT.

I'm craving for... something.

Fuck, my hair's falling out so fast!!!

2009-07-06T12:43:00.002+08:00

You can't imagine how I feel right now.

I'm in the 'OMG TOMORROW IS TUESDAY ALREADY?!' mood. I am definately NOT looking forward to tomorrow, for 3 reasons. 2 of which refers to the Big Os and Rahim's exam. I can't remember some of the choreo already and to top it all off, I haven't even tried freestyling. Yes, I'm screwed. Screwed so badly.

I'm trying, and I'm thinking. Maybe I just don't see it but I still think it really wasn't nessecary. Yeah, there was an issue at hand, I agree, but to that degree of bleakness that you'd take that risk?

I shouldn't have found out. But it shouldn't even be there in the first place. No need to. It just makes things harder. Consequences heavier. Feelings worser.

I shouldn't have found out. But would you have kept it from me?

2009-07-06T01:57:00.002+08:00

Thinking it through and realising new things, it wasn't neseccary to that point. And no, I'm not okay.

2009-07-06T00:05:00.002+08:00

Bought a pair of adidas shoes and a puma bag from warehouse sale. Costed about $1o0. Cheap right! Luckily I went with my parents. NO NEED TO PAY HAHAHA.

After that went to Golden Mile. I feel so at home there. Special bonding time with my parents. I felt like a small kid today.

Was supposed to do Maths at 6, but fell asleep at the bed till 11. Shall do maths, later.

Some things at the top of my list right now is dieting and haircut. I really wanna get a new hairstyle. I've been contemplating cutting away the longer strands of hair but I'm not really in a good situation to go to a hairdresser right now. Can't imagine the hairdresser's reaction. And I AM going to lose weight. I've thought about it and DECIDED. I shall present a fully new Allison when I go back for dance classes with my beloved chagiyas after Os.

I am NOT prepared for Tuesday.

I don't really wanna remember.

2009-07-04T23:43:00.004+08:00

Wow. I'm stunned.

Fuck. Just fuck everything.

당신이 정말 싫어!

2009-07-04T22:49:00.004+08:00

Viewed Razi's masterpeice. Awesome work Razi! I definately look better, slimmer, and prettier last year. I'm so going to lose weight. Gonna stick to the one full meal per day diet. MUST LOSE WEIGHT!

I know our dear Pa's probably not going to read this but Mum will so I'm going to type this anyway. I'm sorry Rahim. Sorry Dad. I'll be back after my Os, and I promise I'll train hard to get ready for the competitions! I'LL MAKE YOU PROUD =DDDD Meanwhile I'm going to continue practicing.. And I'll randomly drop by to say hi too! 4 months will fly by like a comet.

I think I'm going to have a nervous breakdown. SHIT MAN, EXAM ON TUESDAY, HOW?!!!! Shit shit shit, how to freestyle?!

I heard there's this really hot performance of It's You/Eunhyuk popping. I'M GOING TO GO HUNT IT DOWN NOW. Shall post it when I found it.

2009-07-04T01:07:00.002+08:00

I had weird dreams recently.

I dreamt that a murderer was after the Reverandoms and I. Berwin got crushed by a huge granite table, Carel got half her palm chopped off, Goo disappeared halfway into the action, and I pretended to die when the murderer shot me but missed. The dream felt so damn real. After the killings, we all went to watch a movie. The screen was in the sky, and it was at Goo's block. It was a very scary and traumatising movie they were playing. We watched from the busstop. Furqaan got mauled over by a car and the car dragged him behind.. breaking him into small pieces. I saw everything, and ran back to tell Carel that Furqaan was dead. Once I saw Carel, I collapsed due to the overwhelming sadness.. trauma.. and fear. I half crawled, half dragged myself to tell Carel that Furqaan was dead. I cried like there was no tomorrow. In fact, it felt so damn real that I teared while sleeping.

And then I met my boyfriend. Who was a malay. He's tall and handsome.. and had very kissable lips. We kissed alot. Suddenly I opened a door to see a naked Ron Weasely. I hugged him, happy that he was alive. And then... I woke up.

SO WEIRD RIGHT!

Just now, I slept in the afternoon. And I dreamt, AGAIN! I dreamt that I was celebrating my birthday at the airport with my family and friends. Carel and Mamat was there. And then..... BIG BANG CAME TO CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY WITH ME TOO. Oh god T.O.P was so hot I swear. After seeing them for 10 mins, I begged my Dad to rush me home cos I wanted to wear my makeup and everything. Can you believe it, I was at the airport with NO MAKEUP, and greasy hair and clothes! DAMN, HOW TO EAT DINNER WITH BIG BANG LIKE THAT?! So I took a loooong time, and when I finally went back to the airport, THEY LEFT. And I woke up.

See, this is what you get when you stay up too late to fantasize about Eunhyuk and watch a Harry Potter movie after school. Sigh.

Can't wait to see my darlings tomorrow.

2009-07-03T01:17:00.002+08:00

1. My boyfriend must learn to do sexy chest pops like Eunhyuk for me.

2009-07-03T00:49:00.003+08:00

You must be wondering why I'm blogging at such an ungodly hour.

EUNHYUK. IS. SO. FUCKING. HOT.

Just watched a marathon of It's You performances. Gahhh, Eunhyuk's dance and chest pops has stolen my heart! Mega hotness.

LIJIE! CAREL! GOO! EVA! WATCH THIS VIDEO!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w6G5Ly9rUlA&feature=related

My sexy lover is the hot one at the front doing the sexy chest pops @ 1.20. TOTALLY HOT RIGHT! Omg I love the way he slowly showed his sexy skin. How he looked at the audience. How intense his popping was. EUNHYUK IS SO SEXY. I can't describe him more. Oh god if a guy does this in front of me sexily, I'll totally faint and swoon man. I don't care, he's still sexy even though he is skinny and looks like a monkey. Or looks like YOU KHOW WHO.

Another reason why EUNHYUK IS SO DAMN HOT.

His bestfriend's my husband, Xiah Junsu.

HOT. HOT. HOT.
I. WANT. EUNHYUK. NOW.

2009-07-02T22:33:00.002+08:00

Strangely, I'm beginning to enjoy school. I especially love sitting at the back with Carel and the super aircon. I love gossiping with Lijie and I definately look forward to more visitation trips to the DNT room. I love slapping and squeezing Furqaan's cheek or messing with his hair in class. I love doing work SLOWLY in class.

I miss my friends.

Can't wait to see them tomorrow!!

P.S I Still Hate MT Class.

2009-07-01T18:13:00.002+08:00

REVERANDOM STUDY OUTING THIS SATURDAY @ NATIONAL LIBRARY

Who's interested in going? CONTACT CAREL KAY DARLINGS!

Current confirmed darlings:
Me
Carel
Goo
Navin
Razi

Today, Art was soo... productive. So fun. So good. But still a killer lah. There's still another art tutorial this Friday I think. I'll join you at the gym after that kay Carel! Art should end around 2 I think.

Today, I also realised that if it would be soooo fun if I took DNT. Got a peek at the DNT room today, and I liked what I saw. (Stop snickering, Lijie HAHA)

Furqaan! Must go on Saturday kay! I was thinking of asking Rayyan if it's possible to watch the Amityville Horror on Saturday night. I realised that my maths improved; I could do the test this morning! COOL.

Awaiting my shirt to arrive any moment now. Am craving for some sleep. Am DAMN SCARED for Saturday. HOW TO FREESTYLE SIA?! SHIT. Shit. Shit. SHIT! 8 beats of freestyling. Oh goddd.

Rahim: "Take your face, throw it on the floor, and step all over it."

Will definately learn that way. BUT FIRST NEED TO THROW YOUR FACE AWAY! You can do it Ally. Come on. Relax.

I miss everybody. Can't wait to see Goo, Carel, Furqaan, Mamat, Aaron, Berwin, Sho and Lijie at school.

2009-06-28T19:48:00.002+08:00

I really wanted to eat the delicious Nasi Lemak at Whitesands.

Till now, I have yet to try the seven incher from BK. I'M GONNA TRY IT, it looks damn good. School's reopening tomorrow. Say hello to stress.

Goo, I wanna cut my hair short. Can help me?

2009-06-28T00:14:00.002+08:00

Everyone but me has blogged about the Explorer Kid.

It was absolutely fun of course! But the yellow flat slide was abit intense leh. I wouldn't go on in if I was five. Hmm. Okay I really want to blog more but I don't know what else to say.

Oh, Goo's bed is like so god damn comfy. I swear, I could sleep on her bed for 1 whole day man. Especially with a nice, warm quilt with the air con on.. IT FEELS SO BLISSFUL. I don't care, I want a sleepover at her house!! The other Reverandoms love different parts of her bed but I LOVE EVERYTHING!! Gahhh, so soft and comfy.

And I saw a fancam on Youtube which was taken that day at the Airport when FT Island flew in. I WAS INSIDE THE FANCAM, oh god. I look so... sigh. Old. And apparently, Goo gets a kick out of watching Carel's Explorer Kid video on Youtube of ME FALLING FLAT ON MY TORSO while gripping on to Furqaan's jacket. She laughed like crazyyy man.

Drag Me To Hell was a BLAST. The best horror movie I've watched yet. Furqaan is such a dear for enduring my ear splitting screams and finger breaking grasps.

I love the Reverandoms. I love my family.

2009-06-24T19:01:00.002+08:00

Sigh. What have things turned into?

Okay. I'm really sorry. We didn't mean it and didn't expect things to end up this way. Our intention was not to hurt you to this extent. Sigh. We didn't mean it. We're sorry.

And I haven't done art yet. I need motivation. Someone quick, motivate me! Unnie! Lijie! Carel!

P.S FT Island to land at Changi Airport T2 at 9.20 tomorrow.

2009-06-23T20:30:00.003+08:00

Sigh sigh, my blog's so dead now. O Levels... SO FAST?!

This post is dedicated to my dear Ong Lijie, whom obviously missed me so since this afternoon at the Foyer.

HAHA

P.S DAYUMMM, our little boy's getting hotter!!

P.S.S AARON FINALLY SHAVED!! WHOO!!!!